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I wish I could go back to december wen my grandmother was alive when she had more energy than anyone I kno, and wanted to walk everywhere, back when she use to start her sayings with “when I die…”And I just used to look at her and laugh cuz I thought that moment would never come. Back to when my family would reunite every other saturday and eat my grandfathers food. Back to when she use to collect the most random things cuz she “might need them for a project later on”. Back to when she use to do her craft and knit. Back when she use to call people a million names before remembering their own name. Back when she bought me my first kitchen aid mixer for my birthday. Back when she didn’t let me my sister and brother chew gum in the house cuz we would stick it anywhere. Back when she use to tell us stories about the ghost with no head when we were little. Back when she use to make the BEST salad on earth (and I hate salad). Back to when me my sister and brother said or did something bad and she would look at us and open her eyes huge and scare us, she didn’t even have to say a word. Back to when my family was the same cuz without her my family is not complete. Back to when she use to smile with the most sweetest and sincere smile I’ve ever seen. I still smell her favorite perfume, and hear her voice. I still talk about her in present terms as if she was still here with us. I just wish I could have had more time with her, but I can’t cuz she’s gone. I kno people say she’s in a better place now but the truth is, my better place was wen she was here with me. I kno god took her before she suffered more with the cancer cuz he knew she was too good to suffer more than she already had, he knew she didn’t deserve to suffer more. It might sound selfish but I just wish I could have her here again and call her cellphone and she would answer. I really miss her and its only been 2 weeks. People say that time makes the hurt hurt less, but it seems as if time is making it hurt more and more each day. Everybody who knew her fell in love with her instantly , there was not 1 person that didn’t like her. The only nice thing about her death was that she waited and fought until her favorite time of day which was wen the sun was rising to stop breathing, she wanted to go with the sunrise and she did at 6:15am. She was and still forever and always loved and missed terribly, life just isn’t the same without her. R.I.P Mama Ines a.k.a Trini 4.27.39 —2.15.11